How do you practice self-care

Destroy to Become

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“To become the person you want to be you must destroy the person you are.”

I’m currently destroying everything I thought I was- to become who I know I’m meant to be.

What self-care used to look like

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Self care for me looked like taking the day off and ceasing the urge to be “productive” occasionally.

It looked like eating healthy and wholesome food to properly nourish my body.

“Everything showers” were a must at least once a month. (The girlies know what I’m referring to when I say that, if you don’t know…well, too bad.)

It looked like going to therapy to help work through things I couldn’t alone; It’s amazing the things you learn about yourself when you’re in a safe space to express openly.

Exercising with dance and longs walks in nature.

Saying absolutely the fuck not when I wanted to say no instead of consistently overriding how I felt to appease others.

I self cared so hard I rose in love with myself.

Then… I hit a wall.

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I thought I’d done all the work necessary but that illusion crumbled before me.

There were things and people I no longer aligned with but the love and attachment kept me tethered even though my intuition had me chocked at the collar.

My Higher Self Stepped In

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I ignored her for a while- well I tried to at least but before I knew it, when she couldn’t reach me in my waking life, she flooded me with dream that woke me up in tears. No, not a tear or two but gut wrenching sobs from the pits of my soul like my body knew the truth my mind was refusing to accept.

I was forced to keep my eyes open when I literally wanted to glue them shut because “what do you burn it all down? Isn’t there another way?”

The Truth I Couldn’t Ignore

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If I did not take heed it was made clear that I’d spend the rest of my life in deep regret, stuck in a loop of almosts and emotional debt. That was a risk I was unwilling to take.

My children are watching.

I’ve been burning down my life for at least a month now and it feels like I’m taking a thousand steps backwards but something in me (my higher self) is reminding me that it’s only to be a million steps ahead later

I am no longer tending to the versions of me that were built to survive. I am walking forward and barefoot into the life I was born to claim.; from the ashes I WILL RISE.