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Some months ago, for some random reason I became fixated on aviation. I’ve never had the desire to be a pilot before that. I went all the way, researching the field, looking for programs/schools, joining social media groups, events, and discovery flights. I went full force until I went for the AME (Aviation Medical Exam). I was told I failed the vision part of the exam and needed to pay a visit to the eye doctor to see if it could be corrected. It couldn’t. It was beyond repair, so I was told. I didn’t fight it; I knew I was visually impaired but not to the extent of it being irreversible. I cried for a good day and a half, but I eventually let it go. It’s already a dangerous profession, and I didn’t want my blindness adding to the risk factor. Anyway, I would have been denied by the FAA anyway.

Some of my most recent curiosities have been everything, really, especially financial wellness because, as stated in a previous post, I am unwell. God forbid a girl wants to live like money grows on trees.

What are you curious about?

Do you ever think about the ocean and all its vastness or space and all its worlds beyond?

I do, in fact, all the time.

I’m not sure if my mind or any other humans mind can conceptualize the complexities of any of it.

Or can it ?🧐

I’m curious about the God I grew up believing in. Now that I’m thinking about it, how odd of me to believe of all the amazing things and places it has created that it’s biggest concern is little ol” me believing in it or not and how I should be “punished” if I don’t.

I’m sure I’m the least of its worries and I think I’m loved way more than that.

Speaking of, I’m curious about love and how it could wrap you tightly in its embrace, comforting your soul to its depths but be the very thing that could make your heart physically change shape from the pain it can cause.

It’s so cruel and beautiful at the same time. But why does it have to be?

This makes me think about the Law of Polarity. The law that states everything has an equal opposite. Basically, both must exist simultaneously in order for us to understand the other.

Perhaps loving truly is the bravest thing a person could do.