Tell us about your first day at something — school, work, as a parent, etc.

I had awaken from what felt like a dream.

With sleep in my eyes, throbbing aches in my breast and a profound soreness in my vagina from the several stitches i had received to put back together what had been torn apart to birth a 9lbs wide shouldered baby- I carefully rolled over to see him wide eyed staring back at me.

It was just me and him.

We admired each other for while before he started demanding things of me. I panicked as I had never had a baby before. He was all mine and there was no one there to tell me what to do next.

I gently sat myself up on the bed, picked him up and placed him to my breast. It was was like a demonic vacuum attached it self to me and there was no “easy” way of getting him off so I sat there in pain layered in more pain while he nursed himself back asleep. I cried while he ate breakfast and in that moment I vowed to NEVER do it again.

…. I did it again 🙄