What major historical events do you remember?
26 Days after my father was murdered and 45 days after my cousin (best friend) transitioned from cancer.
9/11 happened.
I was home from school that day and I sat staring at the TV while my mother sobbed at the screen and the others conferred with each other.
What. The. Fuck
Was the common phrase tossed around back and forth.
So much death that year. It’s hard to forget.
My 7 year old heart could barely take it.
I think it may have been that year when I forced myself numb to keep from crumbling under the boulders of pain and utter confusion.
I was 7 when I learned to not feel because feeling hurt too bad and feeling required others to feel for you when they barely had space to. I could feel it.
“Too much feeling.”
“What do I do with these feelings? “
“Turn it OOOOFFFFF!”
“PLEEEEAAAASSE!“
“Finally.”
“Nothing.”
“Silence.”
My subconscious is where I packed those feelings away, safe and snug so they don’t bother us anymore.
Until my nervous system remembers.
In Quest of Her 
I remember this day as well. I was a freshman at the time. What stuck out the most to me was that absolutely no one knew what to say. Or even if it was real! It didn’t register that we were watching such a tragedy take place. Regardless of the conspiracy theories, being thirteen and fourteen years old brought to light the absoluteness of war. We did get to see the entire country work together for the most part, and it’s unfortunate that it takes these events to bring the best out of us.
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Right !?
It did feel unreal.
I hate that it takes the most tragic things to happen for us to come together.
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How do you think we could do better in this area as a society? I have my thoughts but I would like to hear yours.
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By working on ourselves first; Becoming self aware. It’s people who make up society so it’s people who need to be “fixed”
Maybe fixed isn’t the most appropriate word but I don’t think we can get anywhere in this society as a society if people walk around not being aware of what and how they themselves contribute to it.
I think we need to start putting into ourself what we want to get out.
I have so much I want to say pertaining to this. Hopefully this makes sense.
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True. I believe it starts from looking into ourselves. When we look into ourselves, we are pointing only at us, and hence more room to grow and less room for excuses. But when we point outward, there are billions to point at, that we forget to become aware of our own actions and create less room for self growth.
I hope I made sense 😅
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Omg yeeeesss this made perfect sense. Thanks for building on this thought!
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Yeah! And thank you for your initial words that made me think more about the topic✨
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Of course ! 😊
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What do you think Elston?
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I could add on to what you said by saying that we could all use more compassion as well. The self development would make sure that we are holding down our ends on the individual side. The compassion means that we acknowledge others going through what we went through and help the ones that can be helped. If we served humanity like we would our most loved family members, that would be a game changer.
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